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  <title>frostfern</title>
  <subtitle>in my head</subtitle>
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    <email>i.intangible@gmail.com</email>
    <name>beauty of preservation</name>
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  <updated>2007-01-22T08:27:24Z</updated>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:10619</id>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2007-01-22T02:27:00</title>
    <published>2007-01-22T08:27:24Z</published>
    <updated>2007-01-22T08:27:24Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;Hell-o!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://images20.fotki.com/v383/photos/1/124617/566573/IMG_6541-vi.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Don't get my sympathy &lt;br /&gt;Hanging out the 15th floor &lt;br /&gt;You've changed the locks three times&lt;br /&gt;He still comes reeling through the door &lt;br /&gt;One day I'll get to you &lt;br /&gt;And teach you how to get to purest hell &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You do it to yourself, you do&lt;br /&gt;and that's what really hurts&lt;br /&gt;You do it to yourself, just you&lt;br /&gt;you and no-one else&lt;br /&gt;You do it to yourself &lt;br /&gt;You do it to yourself"&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;/&lt;br /&gt;///&lt;br /&gt;//&lt;br /&gt;/&lt;br /&gt;+&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I realized that i'm going to get back into either A) waiting tables or B) cocktailing.  I'm tired of dealing with people and getting paid hourly for it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But i'm in college now and going to London... so it's cool.  But in the mean-time... no more french sweets.  :)</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:10214</id>
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    <title>yeah... so</title>
    <published>2006-12-16T04:46:32Z</published>
    <updated>2006-12-16T04:46:32Z</updated>
    <lj:music>John Tejada - At The end Of It All</lj:music>
    <content type="html">It's been a while since I last updated.  A lot has gone down... like getting my first and LAST DWI.  Wrecking my car beyond repair.  Going completely insane.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm in college now.  American Intercontinental University.  It started in Europe and now how locations in a few major cities in the US.  I'm getting a BFI.  Bachelors of Fine Arts.  That is Visual Communications:  Photography, Web Design, Photoshop and Dreamweaver, etc.  In three years i'll have a real decent career.  Possibly in web design.  And i'd like to do freelance photography.  Weddings, portraits, models, etc.  In a couple of months I will have my new camera.  I'm getting a Nikon D50.  Fucking sexy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Brandon is over.  He and John are watching Where the Buffalo Roam.  I just made spicey speghetti.  :)  Even though I am so preoccupied with bullshit crap... life is good.  Probation sucks... not having a car... losing 8,000 dollars - really bites.  But you know what?  What is hard is right.  And will make you stronger.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I feel crazy.  This feels crazy.  In a very difficult time in my life... where everything is wacko and out of the loop, I have found peace.  Peace in chaos.  I'm one of those people that focus under pressure.  I really do believe that life is changing for the better.  Not just life... but me.  I feel that I am becoming a better person.  I'm thinking realistically... yet still dreaming of all the possibilities.  I'm a 20 year old beautiful girl who has great passions.  I have my whole life ahead of me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And who else better to be by my side than Johnny?  Nobody.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And on another note... I just wanted to say that I love my mother.  She is the strongest, coolest, hippest, most noble woman I have ever met.  She is my hero in every way and I adore her.  I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <title>IMPORTANT</title>
    <published>2006-09-24T23:02:13Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-24T23:02:13Z</updated>
    <lj:music>kraftwerk</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hey everyone.  SOMEONE HACKED my aim screen name: Prisca in Eden.  I can't delete or change my password because i cant remember my security question.  I will never be on that screen name again so if someone IMs you, then it is clearly not me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My new screen name is: &lt;b&gt;assemblage 2012&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;thanx</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:9532</id>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-08-22T19:13:00</title>
    <published>2006-08-23T00:14:23Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-23T00:14:23Z</updated>
    <content type="html">i know way too many leos and virgos.  fuck a sag.  i'm kinda hoping to meet a really cool gemini?</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:9385</id>
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    <title>hey hey hey!</title>
    <published>2006-08-14T15:28:23Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-14T15:28:23Z</updated>
    <content type="html">It's my birthday! :)  Bonnie is 20.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:9045</id>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-08-05T10:06:00</title>
    <published>2006-08-05T15:15:05Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-05T15:15:17Z</updated>
    <lj:music>MASSIVE ATTACK</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;you&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;are my angel&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://images5.fotki.com/v59/photos/1/124617/583066/bonniecurl-vi.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;come from way above&lt;/center&gt;</content>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-07-23T17:31:00</title>
    <published>2006-07-23T22:33:47Z</published>
    <updated>2006-07-23T22:33:47Z</updated>
    <content type="html">sober now&lt;br /&gt;im cold; alone&lt;br /&gt;im just a person on my own&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;nothing means a thing to me&lt;br /&gt;oh nothing means a thing to me&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;its not a habit&lt;br /&gt;its cool&lt;br /&gt;i feel alive&lt;br /&gt;if you dont have it&lt;br /&gt;your on the other side&lt;br /&gt;im not an addict, baby, thats a lie</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:8594</id>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-07-21T15:56:00</title>
    <published>2006-07-21T21:02:34Z</published>
    <updated>2006-07-21T21:08:48Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Danzig - Mother</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://images18.fotki.com/v328/photos/1/124617/565757/IMG_5015-vi.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Model:&lt;/b&gt; Logan Cornwel&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Taken by:&lt;/b&gt; Bonnie Polinski&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I feel like I really need to update, but I wouldn't even know where to start.  I can't even type as fast anymore.  So much has gone on.  New people have entered my life.  I have been different places with unfamiliar faces.  My car got broken into and then fixed the very next day.  I got drunkenly slapped around in the warehouse district by my best friends un-girlfriend.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Life is insane right now.  Lots of Sonic Slushies and such.  I'm a GC (guitar center) Groupie.  Someone really needs to make me a shirt stating that.  I'm supposed to hang out with Jeremy Spafford today... waiting on his call because I have two Jeremys in my phone... don't know which one is him.  Maybe I'll go to Buffalo Exchange?  Maybe see something worth buying... but even when I do I just imagine who wore it and where it has been.  What drugged up sluts had sex in it and how it ended up at the exchange.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then I find myself back in my little black chevy... driving faster than I really should.  Blasting the Toadies and Pink Floyd.....................................&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That is what I'm going to do.  I'll drive to a pretty place and listen to Pink Floyd.  Alone.  On hospital prescribed codine because I have a pain in my little brain.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love you guys.  Live long and prosper!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://images17.fotki.com/v312/photos/1/124617/565757/IMG_4968-vi.jpg"&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fierce_frozen:8316</id>
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    <title>...</title>
    <published>2006-06-20T19:20:11Z</published>
    <updated>2006-06-20T19:20:11Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I am not even sure that I know what to say.  Life is crazy and at most times, divine.  Being married is amazing... especially when you're married to the most daring, beautiful and free man in the multiverse.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Clinton came from Arizona and left already due to a funeral at home.  Good thing that happened though, because things exploded with Tiff and Aaron right after he left.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I know that talking about income is unappropriate, but I feel it might be good for me.  Not like anyone even reads this thing anyway.  John and I are making a good share of money now and I don't know the best way to handle it.  I know we could save it or just spend it all for a while and live it up while we are still young?  Is there a median?  Something wise I might be missing?  I've never been good with money handling.  We have enought saved for our trip to South Padre and Mexico... and all the summer birthdays and bills and rent.  Now I think we'll pay off John's stuff and my stuff and be completely caught up?  Then maybe ask Grandfather if we can increase the size of our monthly car payments to get it paid off faster so we can have two cars... (even thought one car is perfect for John and I).&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I think that I have forgotten how to make friends.  Or how to be nice to people?  No... i'm nice to people.  Maybe I'm too busy?  Maybe I need to learn to care about human emotions.  I don't know.  I have my family and close friends and that is all that really matters to me.  New friends are just stressful to me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I stopped writing for a very long time.  Then I started again and my style has changed completely.  I really like it and I am very amazed at how easy it was to fall back into it.  So I finally decided what I'm going to go to college for.  This time for real.  I'm going to be an Editor.  I'll take journalism and creative writing.  Practical writing and english of course... keeping most of my focus on Journalism.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Over all..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;life is very good.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <title>oh stoooorrrrrmy....</title>
    <published>2006-05-26T20:32:34Z</published>
    <updated>2006-05-26T20:32:34Z</updated>
    <lj:music>The Supremes - Stormy</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;b&gt;BRING BACK THAT SUNNY DAY!&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You were the sunshine baby&lt;br /&gt;Whenever you smile&lt;br /&gt;But I call you Stormy today&lt;br /&gt;All of a sudden that old rains fallin' down&lt;br /&gt;And my world is cloudy and gray&lt;br /&gt;You've gone away"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Life has been rather dull lately and i've disassociated myself from almost everybody.  I've even started being a bitch to people who have always been nice to me.  I'd like to apologize.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ORI, AARON, BRANDON, JASON, JAKI - Sorry... you guys are awesome.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This summer is going to get better.  I mean.. things are good.  The battle is mainly within myself.  But John and I are going on a road trip to Mexico in July with Tiff and Aaron.  We're also going to South Padre Island.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then John and I are going to go to Arizona (tucson) again... and Clinton is coming in next week from Arizona to see TX for the first time.  Then to New York to go apartment hunting in the Autumn.  I can't wait to be a part of the city.  I just wish I could bring my mom.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;John is moving up in his job at Guitar Center.  I still bouncing around with jobs mainly because I hate waiting tables but I despise retail even more... so it's taking a while to find a resturaunt that suites me well.  BW3s (Buffalo Wild Wings - Royal Oaks) is going good.  We'll see how it goes.  I like it so far.  The car is good.  Cats are good.  Health is good.  Apartment is a mess and I could care less.  I'm 19... when I'm a rich mom i'll clean all the time.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But for now I like struggling a little.  IT keeps life exciting.  Bye guys.</content>
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    <title>so...</title>
    <published>2006-05-04T06:33:32Z</published>
    <updated>2006-05-04T06:34:49Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So I was thinking about how I unknowingly picked up a new hobby.  I just realized it tonight.  My little gang and I have a movie obsession.  John and I have Netflix and Tiffany works at Blockbuster, so the movies are plentiful.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;&lt;b&gt;IF ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY MOVIE SUGGESTIONS PLEASE COMMENT WITH THEM!!!&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/big&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have also picked up a car hobby.  I go to HPD meets every Tuesday with Tiff and Aaron.  HPD is "Houston Performance Driving."  Aaron has made a lot of new friends ever since he got his Camaro SS.  This Tuesday we met at Niko Nikos which was awesome.  It's fun to race with Camaros, Vettes, Stangs and this guy has a badass Supra that scares bikers.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;They go to Starbucks to try to make their penis' seem bigger.  HAHAHHAA&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Speaking of Starbucks... John and I went for out usual Cafe Americanos and when we walked outside to take a seat, I felt someone staring at me.  I looked around and to my surprise, Mr. Barazi (Ryah's Father), and his friends were staring at me.  I introduced him to my husband, John, and he hugged me and gave me his congrats.  It was so weird.  I wouldn't smoke my coffee cigarette because I'm still conditioned to think I'll get in trouble.  So John and I escaped to our car for a smoke.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;John and I got rid of Luna (one of our cats) but kept Obi Wan.  Two of the kittens are leaving to their new home tomorrow around 5:30.  So then we only have to find a home for one more kitten.  If you're interested, give me a buzz.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Got to go... watching Twin Peaks tonight.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <title>every whisper</title>
    <published>2006-04-25T20:46:09Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-25T20:46:09Z</updated>
    <lj:music>The Association - Windy</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;b&gt;every waking hour&lt;br /&gt;im chosing my confessions&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/me2.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;l o s i n g   m y   &lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The things that I don't understand come to me after a while... like the hot sun.  It churns...doesn't run.  The sun is slow.  Slow sun run.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ice is cold and fast.  Sharper.  One million mile per hour.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;One of the things that came to me today is that I have been back-stabbed and betrayed for being beautiful.  All of these people I go through haunt me.  Just all of these people.  The friends I have now I keep secret... and now that drives them away.  I tell them to tell people they don't know who I am.  Does this make me wrong?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm living a secret life underneath your noses.  But I have determined the problem that draws you away from me:  &lt;b&gt;As you all try to be unique and run along your lives trying so hard to be better, prettier, smarter, funner, more tasteful....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am here just basking in myself... loving slow like sun.  Only trying to be nothing but the foundation of who I am.  I am perfect.  I am beautiful.  I am Bonnie Polinski and that is why you are afraid.&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/center&gt;</content>
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    <title>fucking a</title>
    <published>2006-04-11T21:10:41Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-11T21:10:41Z</updated>
    <content type="html">this stupid cunt is still obsessing over me&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://vampirefreaks.com/profile.php?user=cel"&gt;http://vampirefreaks.com/profile.php?user=cel&lt;/a&gt; estial_bound (more pics)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://findagoth.com/users/5044"&gt;http://findagoth.com/users/5044&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;there are more... i just don't even feel like posting them.</content>
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    <title>and again i say</title>
    <published>2006-04-10T22:03:40Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-11T20:36:08Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance."&lt;br /&gt;-Oscar Wilde&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4613.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;"The world is a stage, but the play is badly cast."&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-Oscar Wilde&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Life has been treating Johnny and I very well.  He is Happiness and I'm Euphoria.  Being married is strange... most days it is the same as it has always been... like a birthday.  You don't feel significanly older.  Some days it is as though I can't get him off my mind and think to myself that I am lucky to have found my soul mate so early in life.  His name studders through my heart.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love John.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I miss my family up north and I can't wait to move to New York.  The every day rituals exposed here in Houston are becoming repetitive and unsensible.  But overall... life is amazing.  I love our new car that my noble Grandfather helped us get.  I plan on sending out a thank you letter very shortly.  The new apartment is really cool and I already have two offers for my kittens.  I have three... two down... one to go.  They are gorgeous but I can't have 5 cats.  At least not in an apartment.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Work is doing well and financial security is heading our way.  College in Autumn.  John is excelling at his work place (Guitar Center) and is already being considered for a manager position.  This makes us very excited.  But the day is short and beautiful and I must now go spend time with Tiff and Mom.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4597.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4602.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4630.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4603.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4639.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4604.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4609.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4655.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-6/227955/IMG_4656.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <title>dirt.on.my.face</title>
    <published>2006-04-04T20:26:51Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-04T20:26:51Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Cocteau Twins - Heaven or Las Vegas</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So I don't even know if anyone wonders anymore.  If people think of me anymore.  I have been away for so long.  Not quite hiding, but lazy to the thought of trying to be heard.  It seems the only ones I have to think of me and miss me are the cats of my life.  Obi Wan Kenobi, Luna, the three white kittens, Stormy, Windy, Zeus, Squeaky, Kiki... the names that are closest to me are cats.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have troubles trying not to laugh about this.  John, or "Johnny" he is now called my co-workers, is at work (guitar center).  I'm at my mothers house (where there is internet) and both her and Paul are at work.  Tiffany and Aaron are job hunting.  I am sitting here still cold from the shower and as I say this I remember that nobody is reading this.  Don't believe that I am depressed because I am not... just...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;oh whats the word.  I am &lt;u&gt;weirded out&lt;/u&gt; that I don't remember how to be nice to strangers.  To make friends.  Even when I somehow make a friend now, I...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;A) Don't talk much and that makes them uneasy.  I keep my mouth shut due to paranoia.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;B) Instead of not talking I talk too much about things that don't make sense... ramble on and on to fill the silence and end up looking like a psycho.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;C) Everything that comes out of my mouth is a subtle insult to them... I suppose because I've pretended to like them.  I'm just not easily satisfied, I suppose.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I probably sound like a broken record but these are things I have been thinking about lately.  So the other day I actually went on MYSPACE.  haha... I never go on myspace but I got desperate to find some interesting people.  I looked at 47 pages of girls that might be a cool friend.  Dissapointment.  Not one of them appealed to me in any way, shape or form.  Here are the reasons why:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;&lt;b&gt;&lt;u&gt;ABOUT PEOPLE NOW A DAYS&lt;/big&gt;&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/u&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1) Some girls were just to ugly for me to even look at.&lt;br /&gt;2) Some girls were just to fat for me to even fathom.&lt;br /&gt;3) Some girls were too black.&lt;br /&gt;4) Some girls were too mexican.&lt;br /&gt;5) Some girls were too middle eastern.&lt;br /&gt;6) Some girls were too white.&lt;br /&gt;7) Some girls were too stupid.&lt;br /&gt;8) Some girls had horrible taste in music.&lt;br /&gt;9) Some girls were too artsy.&lt;br /&gt;10) Fake hippies, goth fairies with tattered wings haha, preppy beach babes, scarface lovers, chinese techno ravers, empty headed, wannabe artists, emo "kids", metalheads, drunken bitches, druggies, meth heads, anorexics.........&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I got fed up.  People are accomplishing an ultimate level of fakeness.  The &lt;b&gt;most fake of them all&lt;/b&gt; are the ones that claim to be against the fake world.  The "art people".  They rant and rave about new books and photography.  The go to the museum of fine arts, contemporary arts and act like they think it is interesting while they drink coffee and gossip and talk about things they don't even understand with other people that dress just like them.  Earthy colors like green and brown is their main wardrobe color.  They have messy hair and are going through a phase of NO MAKE UP ALLOWED.  They smoke too much pot yet consider themselves a more intellectual high.  Deep down they strive to be looked at... to be interesting and dark and mysterious... while at the same time dressing like eachother and fading away into a giant pool of art fags and people of the worlds that seem to collide together into one big massacre of red and green and blue and death and tears.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I refuse to be so human.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And all of you would say, "Oh Bonnie.  Bonnie Bitch.  Still bitter after all these years.  Still hasn't grown up.  Still angsty, Bonnie.  Bitter, Bonnie."  I suppose that you could say I'm "still bitter".  I don't think so, though.  I would say that I am more open... more accepting... but the world keeps changing.  The worlds keeps throwing itself away more and more and I refuse to lower myself so low.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;No... i'm not bitter.  I am afraid.  -  Afraid that there is nobody left who really feels.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I hang onto my Husband every night and fall into a dream world where him and I get fat with love and the riches of life.</content>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-03-31T09:51:00</title>
    <published>2006-03-31T15:51:31Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-31T15:51:31Z</updated>
    <content type="html">no one could understand...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;just exactly why i hate all of you.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;oh.  and im not kidding.</content>
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    <title>blue skies</title>
    <published>2006-03-21T21:20:47Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-21T21:20:47Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So the move went extremely well.  John and I really love our new apartment.  And our new car.  And I love my new job, too.  I'm done with training so now the money will be even better for us and we can work on our savings.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Mainly to buy me another car cause I don't like standards.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I think I'd like a Corvette Z06 but that will not happen for many years.  So i'll go with either a safari looking green jeep or another one of my favorable shitty cars that need love.  The new 07 camaro looks really awesome, too. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Also, John and I are going to start bike riding and swimming more often so we can get in shape.  Our complex is huge with the creeks and sunny walkways through green grass and a big field so bike riding should be rather enjoyable.  ESPECIALLY the swimming part, considering we have an olympic sized pool as well as a 12 ft deep pool and 5 others.  There is also a heated pool for those chilly, sexy evenings after a nice jamaican jerk chicken dinner which I plan on making very soon.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Life is good.  My love for Johnny grows stronger every day.  I am building a foundation for myself by looking into colleges.  I'd like to be a full time novelist and a part time Pharmacy Technician.  Scholarships are so easy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am also building my relationships with people.  Everything I said I wanted to do for New Years resolutions are already happening smoothly.  My sister is my best friend and also the only person on this earth that REALLY understands.  I'm an elitist with friends.  I only really REALLY loved one of my friends but she is non existant and has been for a long time so on with life i go.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;head held high, chin up, and a blinding smile on.  everybody!  be happy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;&lt;b&gt;P.S.!!!!!!  I almost forgot!  Luna (one of my two cats) is pregnant!!!!!!&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/big&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;SO IF ANY OF YOU WANT ADORABLE KITTENS, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Luna is a Tortishell with a white belly and long tail and the father, Obi Wan Kenobi, is an albino tabby cat with ice blue eyes.... so the kittens should be breath-taking.  Indoor cats, flea free home, litter box trained.  FOR FREE</content>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-03-15T21:25:00</title>
    <published>2006-03-16T03:27:19Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-16T03:28:53Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm sorry guys.  Do to some MORE stalkers... I now need to screen my comments for reasons such as:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;if i say im going somewhere&lt;br /&gt;you give me your number&lt;br /&gt;i give you my number&lt;br /&gt;blah blah blah&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but i'll unscreen some&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;&lt;b&gt;OH AND WHO WANTS TO HELP ME MOVE FRIDAY&amp;gt;?!??!?!?!?!?&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/big&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;probably nobody :/&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;P.S.  i finally found a job i want to settle down in.  i havn't liked ANY jobs since barry's.  it is....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;HOBBIT CAFE (a lord of the rings based resturant on richmond and kirby&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;fuck yeah!</content>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-03-13T11:04:00</title>
    <published>2006-03-13T17:04:46Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-13T17:04:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">i love my life and my friends and my husband.  now off to hobbit cafe</content>
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    <title>Attention:  Please Evacuate The Refinery</title>
    <published>2006-03-12T23:21:01Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-12T23:21:01Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Aslan Faction - Bring on the Dying</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;d e t a t c h e d&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/refinerygirl.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;andinsanelyheartbroken&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I never knew what that word was... that solemnly hung quiety above head.  In dreams and slipping inbetween asleep and awake.  That one word that I could really say describes me.  Well, ladies and gentlemen... Mrs. Polinski has found that word.  It is:  DETATCHED.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;From reality?  Probably not, considering I am still functioning in it quite well.  Or maybe I really have gone insane and am building my own paradise?  Detatched... from people?  Seems I am but I live with them every day?  Maybe not quite.  Detatched... from myself?  from my family?  from the sky the sun the moon?  from music and light and the darkness in my dreams?  from dancing and taking vitamins?  from working?  from being simple...... i don't know.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Let us just say detatched.  Period.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My father always said: "Change what goes into your mind and change yourself."  Well... I took his advice and it worked.  I stopped listening to Manson many years ago which I can thank my father for.  Manson sucks.  Especially more-so now than in 97 when I was interested.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But not to stray from the subject at hand, when I changed what went into my mind... I forgot to put something else into my mind.  And now I see blank spaces... spaces inbetween us... spaces where thoughts should be.  Spaces that space me out into space which in turn give me more space than I could possibly need or want... which in return bring loneliness.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When I tell this to John he calls me a stress-a-holic.  Says I worry too much.  Maybe he is right... but I cannot ignore this .... this _______ that has no name.  This feeling that has no name... as it drills and stirs my wicked heart.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;I am the leader of a plague with no name.&lt;br /&gt;I am an army that is dusted in shame.&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I wish that I could explain how I feel but I can't for numerous reasons.  I'd think it pointless since I know that nobody even read this far.  It would be a poetic short story for you.  You wouldn't take it seriously as a feeling...  a state of being that I am forever locked inside.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but on i go and i must spill it for me.  this is me.  this is the feeling erupting inside of my chest.... making me feel the need to howl and brand the moon.  this is what i feel every second of every day that i am feeling like myself:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Dark clouds.  Cluttered dark clouds wisping down to the burnt grass.  A black car.  A shiny black car which I arrived in.  Arrived at the scene with the dark clouds.  Invisible audience waits for my show.  I dance to machines and crooked songs with singers that sing out of twisted teeth.  Dark glowing purple spaces in the heavy black sky.  Black clouds with silver dust.  Falling.  Heart-break's story untold.  Misery lifted out of my chest and explodes.  Piercing eyes.  Sharp hands.  Weak yet so strong.  The face of knowledge... swimming.  I'm swimming in a sea of oil... refinery queen.  Covered in oil... set the world on fire as the cry for me.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Nobody will ever understand... but until then... I will continue to live and breathe and be the happiest woman in the universe.  The girl who was never burnt by fireflies.  The girl who misses a beautiful girl I once drowned in a sea with.  The girl who eats too many grapes.  The girl who lives each day like it were her deathday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Adieu,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <title>fierce_frozen @ 2006-03-06T12:22:00</title>
    <published>2006-03-06T18:23:31Z</published>
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    <content type="html">you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;you ripped my life apart&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tore the flesh from my heart&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;bring on&lt;br /&gt;bring on the dying</content>
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    <title>h u s h</title>
    <published>2006-02-11T21:11:00Z</published>
    <updated>2006-02-11T21:16:47Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Dogzilla - Without You</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4437.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i hear you calling me&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;haunting me&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;there's nothing I can do&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i stand here paralyzed&lt;br /&gt;i've realized&lt;br /&gt;there's nothing without you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;if I could talk to you&lt;br /&gt;embrace you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;u&gt;whisper in your ear&lt;/u&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i would tell you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;that you are the only...&lt;br /&gt;the only thing I need&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i am hypnotised&lt;br /&gt;mesmerized&lt;br /&gt;as I walk toward the fire&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the fear comes over me&lt;br /&gt;and then I see&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;the meaning of desire&lt;/big&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;if I could talk to you&lt;br /&gt;embrace you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;u&gt;whisper in your ear&lt;/u&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i would tell you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;that you are the only...&lt;br /&gt;the only thing I need&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;if you could see my face&lt;br /&gt;hold my hands&lt;br /&gt;look into my eyes&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;i would show you&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;that you are the only...&lt;br /&gt;the only thing i need&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My day has been just that... a whisper. A long, beautiful whisper. After I took John to work, I decided to take pictures. I havn't touched my camera in a long time. I suppose that since I have distanced myself from just about everybody, I have had more time to spend with myself which makes it easier to be myself. I'm feeling much better already.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;small&gt;Speaking of which... I told Liz that I didn't want to associate with her anymore since she decided to hang out with some crackhead I won't name because I don't want drama. I just really don't want highschool drug addicts lurking around the temple of me. I love Liz to death but I have come to a stage of maturity in my life where I can let go of fun people in order to stay away from the scum of earth. I think all will be well with that. I wasn't going to tell Liz to stop talking to the crackhead because this isn't third grade so I just did all of us a favor and said my goodbyes.&lt;/small&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want a friend that doesn't try to be me... copy things I do... or even hold back from saying things because they think I won't like them. Just because I am an elitist with friends doesn't mean I don't believe opposites attract. But i've never been lucky with friends anyway. I suppose that would be my fault for choosing the wrong people. Or maybe i'm easily manipulated by beautiful women.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But I have been gradually increasing myself... onto a higher level of adulthood and I feel so free. I drove to the museum district today because the skies were deep blue, the grass was contrasted green and the brilliant sun was no match for the frozen winds. I took some incriminating photographs of a happy girl: &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;______________________________________________________________       &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4374.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4387.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4401.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4411.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4416.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4417.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4448.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y52/somewherevast/IMG_4469.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;______________________________________________________________&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Everyone I saw today was smiling... besides for the asshole houston drivers that I so easily put in line. My car may not be new or sexy but it is a Chevy and really damn fast. Don't fuck with me when I'm listening to fast songs on the road. Then I went to pick up John from his new Job for his 1 hour lunch break. We went to subway and goofed around... smoked "sweet fat delicious camel wides" ;) and kissed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;big&gt;&lt;b&gt;I love my Husband.&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/big&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then I took him back to work.  Speaking of his new job... John now works at Guitar Center.  He loves it there and he is happy to be working with Levi (this guy I kinda know).  Levi is so sweet.  He and John are adorable.  John works in the keyboard department towards the back.  I am so happy for him.  He loves his job.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then after I dropped John off, I was going to go home, but I decided to go to my mom's house.  I walked in and the weirdest thing happened.  Jon G was here with Paul!  Paul mentioned Jon had called him a few nights ago but I didn't think it would pull through honestly.  They're watching Napoleon Dynomite and laughing and laughing.  They look happy.  Good.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm really glad.  That is why mean old Bonnie isn't interfering.  But when people grow up we can all be laughing together someday because I know that I am way over the old days.  Too much life to live to worry about the past.  I'm going to go outside and smoke another camel wide (god i love them!) and maybe utter a "hi" to John.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Since he is Ryah's boyfriend and no longer my brother I predict he will not return my polite gesture but that is fine.  Just as long as everyone is happy, I can continue my beautiful day and go to Starbucks on Westheimer around 4:00.  :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski&lt;/center&gt;</content>
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    <title>cats are taking over my life</title>
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    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;and video games&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I've been rather uh... lazy.  It's been fun for quite a while now but uh... i'm sick of being a housewife.  I'm sick of serving hungry people, as well.  So i've been looking around and I think there is a very good chance I will be working a clerical position (aka secretary).  Tiff and I went to the top of the williams tower after a nice windy picnic the other day.  I met Ethan's new sweety, Zoee.  She is adorable.  Got to see major tom and jaki again... that was nice.  Late night pie and rum and coke go pretty well with free pacman... even though I couldn't play because Aaron hogged the machine.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I made chicken parm last night for John and Tiff while they watched the superbowl.  It was really tastey with spaggities and chopped broccoli.  Me and Johnny's apartment is looking very much more like a home with all the stuff we got at our wedding.  Gift cards are very useful because if it was money I would blow it on food, movies, food, alcohol, food and like... oh yeah... ciggies.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Instead I was forced to buy awesome shit for our apartment like frames and leather pillows, a starry night poster, lava lamp (coolest thing ever), big comfy computer chair for john, dvd rack, and a whole bunch of other shit that I can't remember because i'm hungry and about to get my period.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;thats right.  blood on your vagina.  get over it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;it means i can have babies some day.  .............  far far away from now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but anyway.  may the force be with you.  :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;Bonnie Polinski</content>
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    <content type="html">wow, man.  just...... wow&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;hahhahahahahahahhahahahahha&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;lizzy lizard and i were just checking out some myspace pages of people we know/knew that we happened to run across and damn...  maybe it is just because it is 4:00 in the morning after a crazy night or maybe we are completely right but DAMN&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;those people are really pointless and incredibly painfully horribly terrible.  in every way possible.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;oh yeah... discluding the people on my myspace friends list.  you guys are badass fine pieces of sexy ass</content>
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    <content type="html">&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.myspace.com/fiercefrozen"&gt;Find me on MySpace and be my friend!&lt;/a&gt;</content>
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